Wednesday, July 28, 2010

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LOH GUAN LYE ~ CCU ~ NORMAL ROOM ~
LOH GUAN LYE ~ NORMAL ROOM ~ HOME ~
HOME ~ LOH GUAN LYE ~ CCU ~ NORMAL ROOM ~
HOME ~ LOH GUAN LYE ~ NORMAL ROOM ~ HOME ~ HEAVEN !!!

grandma's life before she passed away ~
what the sad news when everyone of us hoping that grandma can recover from sick
and finally we received the bad news that grandma suffered the cervical cancer !!
oh my god !! how and why ??
why did u give my grandma such a suffering life during her old times ?
everyone of us thought that grandma can be recovered !
doctor estimated that grandma still have 1/2 year life time
but then why it is so fast ? just 2 or 3 weeks life time !
i really couldn't accept this fact !
last monday night i received an emergency call from mom
she said that grandma had difficulty in breathing and wanted me to go back home next day
yea, the next day i arrived at hospital and went to see grandma
everyone asked me not to touch grandma to prevent her from waking up
because once she is awake, she will very pain due the cancer !
so, she never knew that i was beside her that time
after that, ambulans sent her home. this was what the the bad and sad news began !
because once she was homed , then we had to be well prepared that she will go in any minutes !
but, grandma was so strong and tough ! she had difficulty in breathing whole day !
we touched her softly, asked her not to worry, not to scare !
until the next morning 6am something, my mom knocked my room door loudly said grandma got breathing problem !
i got a shock, and jumped from bed and ran to see grandma.
everyone of us were beside grandma, talked to her touched her.
around 7.30am, my dad asked us to hold her hand.
at this moment , i remember clearly this moment !
grandma passed away. she couldn't standstill anymore.
she felt good when everyone of us holding her hands. so she just left us.
we cried badly sadly... this moment, everyone of us just couldn't accept the fact that grandma had passed away !

is it good for grandma to go away from suffering the pain and sickness ?
hopefully it is ~ and I love grandma ! I miss grandma !
I know I cant do anything for her right now, because it is too late !
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